Tuesday, June 30, 2009

sundays are sometimes hard

I went to church this Sunday and was approached by a friend. She was there because one of her friends was having a hard time sitting through a service and thought a change in worship would help. See this lady's Husband had past away about a year ago and it is just too hard to sit in a service and not think about her husband helping lead the worship. Every song reminds her of him. I don't know the pain of loosing a spouse especially one you have had for 20 years and have built a life with. But I do know grief. I know what it feels like to sit in a service and hear the beautiful songs but all you feel like doing is crying and asking God to heal your heart. You feel silly sobbing in the pew while people look at you and wonder what is wrong. That pain that you feel deep inside that for some reason God wont let you push away in his presence. The pain that makes you want to crawl up in a ball and never come back out. I guess we all grieve in our own ways. Maybe that is what the worship services are doing. They are helping us to grieve. To let out what we cant during the week. To help us to know that God is still listening and hasn't gone anywhere. To give us a place to cry. My prayer is for those who go to church with a heavy heart that they will meet God and he will comfort them like no other can.

1 comment:

  1. you're doing great...you have very interesting thoughts and i love to "hear" (read) them!!! love you!!!

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